If you love me…

“If you love me, obey my commandments.” – John 14:15 NLT

What a dilemma it is. Such a tragic statement in many ways. I fell into this trap of thoughts “I better obey His voice to show I love Him.” What a wrong mind set I had yet I find myself lacking in love resulting failing to obey Him.  I want to be set free from obey to love, I want to love first and my obedience follow through.


I need to write more.

I’m a person who forgets easily. I’m a person who has hard time communicating. I’m a person who is not friendly with language. I’m a FOB (means an immigrant). God has been requesting me to improve in this area for His glory. I’ve been pushing back and refusing to improve in getting better at communication skills. There are many other areas where I need to work on but surely I need to improve efficiency in delivering my thoughts.

My solution to this? Write more often. So here I come, I’ll write as much as possible. Hopefully i’ll not stop after a day or two. Lots of random things or thoughts in my head will be posted here. If you know me well enough and know how to contact me, nudge me time to time if I stop writing. Thank you.


update.

Woah, it has been about a month since I updated my blog. It has been busy and i’ve been away for a bit. Here are what I’ve been up to. For those who were wondering what I’ve been up to and what God has been doing in my life, here are quick update.

  • Summer school was extremely busy trying to finish up everything before I left for Kentucky and Guatemala. Especially last 2 days before leaving for Guatemala. I would never do that again and know will not, I have one more year left.
  • 2 days at Kentucky were great enough. I enjoyed it, however, didn’t get much rest before the Guatemala trip. Who knew? I’d slapped by tons of school works to turn in before I leave after a long trip to Kentucky? I still can’t believe a tire poped on trailer and weren’t able to find it quick enough. + Q hit my car with church van….
  • Guatemala = amazing. This was the first year I left there with peace in my heart. It was amazing to get to know people in depth. Compassion, what I lack a lot but He is willing to work with me. I don’t know how long it will take but with faith and trust, i’ll enter into this journey to learn compassion that Jesus had.

That pretty much sums up one month of my journey.